What Grows Up Must Get Down

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    Our debt full-length, Party On. Released by Jetsam-Flotsam Records.

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a vacation is all I've ever wanted
I just cannot escape these walls
all the people in my life are telling me
"well, John, you've got to get away"

I'll take the extended vacation
to a place that i know well
it's called the padded-cell hotel
where they told me I might find myself
but instead I found the floor
I broke myself upon
from the thought of being exiled
from all the places I've belonged

it's the last time you'll see me
don't try to reach me
they've cut me off

the vacation never fucking happened
I'm still stuck inside these walls
all the people in my life now know about
how displacement has been haunting me

I spend my whole day staring
at the hands on ticking clocks
trying to find a cure for all this
goddamned writer’s block
when everything is lost
and nothing can be found
you can find me at the bus stop
waiting to leave town

sometimes I forget where I am
sometimes I don't know
sometimes I forget where I am
sometimes I struggle to find my home


from Party On, released August 4, 2015



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